Multiple Personality Disorder - Symptoms

My partner has this disorder but is not diognosed he had alot of abuse through childhood and when he was a teenager... I believe they have been mildly out for about a year but for the past month i have offically met one i guess the main one. He comes out when my partners stressed is the same age but has completely different tastes and how he interacts with friends and myself. I am wondering if theres and other wives or girlfriends going through the same thing atm and have advice how to ask your partner to get help... my partner is going into the army soon and this is the reason he wont go to a DR.. he's not violent or anyhting yet. but has said he feels angry personalities brewing its like a weird feeling he says he says he feels 5 different ones.

i have a sister in law who has did but sadly does not acknowledge it as this condition, she believes these people got into her body some other way and thst they truly exsist as real people. this was very convincing for me as i actuslly married one of these personalities. we communicated for years over the internet and phone and by that time i was so in love, when i realised what was happeneing i was so into believing the stories she told, but now after years of research and by coming across this page and reading all your wonderful stories for which i now know i am not alone as a supporter i feel i can break away, she has two personalities right now, one is the one i married so nice and gentle the other lies through his teeth and can be nasty. nothing is ever theirs or her fault i am always blamed for things that go wrong, i can see why now that her oldest friend doesnt talk to her anymore.she doesnt take medication and refuses to get help. she hasnt even told her own daughters she has this, i know something happened to her when she was younger but i dont want to upset her anymore by probing uestions, i know she needs help but where is the support groups for family members who have to cope with this, i have been made a nervous wreck and i shake a lot now due to what i hav e gone through. yes remember that the sufferers of did need help and our support but who supports the supporter when their life is torn apart by the agressive personality, i have yet to find anyone i can tell my story to.

I just seperated from my husband, who has MPD. My heart hurts for him but I can not live with his other personalities and keep my sanity. I loved his core personality, which I called Jeremy. This personality was the guy I married. I did not, in any way, marry the other personalities, and in fact he had several. When we seperated, I did not know what was wrong, he did not have a diagnosis then. I tried so hard to be understanding, I loved this man. His other personality, Jerome, who was mean, angry, and destructive, did not like me and was emotionally, physically and sexually abusive.

Jeremy was abused as a young child, given punishments that did not fit the crime when he was younger. He had been tied to a tree by his father for three days when he was young boy, for forgetting to feed one the dogs. He was left in the woods for three days without food and water. He had been molested by uncles and cousins. My heart went out to Jeremy, I wanted to take his pain away with my love. One of Jeremy alters was a child, and this child was terrified of the world and was always scared and would often cry to me, like I was the mother he never had. I loved this child and was constantly aware that my husband had been through so much trauma that this was his way of handling what had happenned to him. But one of the other personalities hated me, Jerome. I could not live with him. He was crazy and this personality was one second away from disaster whenever he would appear. This personality has tried to kill me, rape me and degrad me in any way possible. When I finally left after being married for a little over a year. He tried to commit suicide just weeks ago. He was in the mental hospital for weeks and they diagnosed him with MPD. I am trying hard to understand what happenned to me with this experience.I am a wreck, I want to love Jeremy but can not love his disorder. I had to get away from it. I have received many threats from him since I left. And I have hear desperate pleas for me to come back. How do I get myself help for having to live through that? Any answers??

Basic premise of MPD/DID falsifies itself.



Definitions:

- Minimal Self: the awareness of Self in the immediate here-and-now. The Minimal Self has two components;

- Sense of Self-agency, "I am the one doing this or that"

- Sense of Self-ownership, "I am the one experiencing this or that"



The basic assumptions, upon which conceptions of Multiple Personality/DID have been built, are:

- when a child experiences trauma/suffering that they cannot escape from, physically, they can still escape the trauma/suffering mentally – through a reflexive, involuntary dissociation process

- this dissociation process involves the "splitting off" of a secondary personality, who will "take over" and experience the trauma/suffering, retaining a memory of it, in the place of the original or master personality who may have no memory of it



The point of all this, is to ESCAPE SUFFERING. It makes sense that, if a child who was being raped could change their perception from "I am being raped" to " ‘some other person’ is being raped", that might alleviate some of their suffering. This would be a severe episode of dissociative depersonalization, where one component of the MInimal Self – the Sense of Self-ownership – has been disrupted, has 'collapsed' or become inactive.



Episodes of dissociative depersonalization – where the experience of "this is happening to me" (Self-ownership) fades out and is replaced by a sense of "this seems to be happening, not to me, but to ‘some other person’ " - are not that uncommon, when a person is "in shock" or under extreme stress.



This is NOT THE SAME phenomenon as "splitting off" a new personality, a new "I" or "switching to" a different personality, a different "I".

"I", whatever identity it carries, experiences Self-agency and Self-ownership.



"I-Bob" is being raped and the suffering is intolerable, so "I-Bob" collapses and Sense of Ownership is taken over by "I-Sam".

"I-Sam" is still being raped and possesses Sense of Ownership, so "I-Sam" is going to experience intolerable suffering. The suffering has not been escaped, or alleviated or mitigated in any way. A switch of identities can’t help the victim, if the Minimal Self – experiencing Sense of Agency and Sense of Ownership – remains functional.



Even if it was possible, "splitting off" a new personality couldn’t help a victimized person escape their suffering, so that can’t be how or why alters come into being.

I have a friend I have known since high school. She moved away but we have always kept in touch. She recently moved back. She is truly a mess. She is extremely insecure though I recall her always to be sensitive and insecure. Bottom line is she was diagnosed as mpd 20+ years ago and has been suicidal off and on since way back in high school. Since she has moved back to the area and I have been visiting and chatting with her I find her emotionally draining. She has been back home about 4 months now and she wants me to keep her company A LOT. She claims she is lonely, etc. but the thing I find more concerning is that she can not seem to function well on her own at all. She is weak (from cancer she overcame) and can't lift hardly anything. She lives alone and is constantly depressed. She wants me to take her to all her doctor appointments. She can't keep her apt clean and I am always helping her wash clothes, go for groceries. She calls because she does not want to get out and aks me to bring her lunch. It's never ending. I want to help my friend but I do not want to enable her. Is this normal for mpd personalities?

I was diagnosed with DID in 2007 but can remember being dissociative at a very young age. The rapid cycling or "rolodexing", I call it, happens regularly during moments of high stress/trauma. I have 32 personalities at the moment, sometimes the number fluctuates depending on what's happening in my life. I was abused by many family members sexually, socially, mentally, physically, and emotionally. I was sexually abused by members of the pulpit, suffered terrorizing in school, and was neglected by my parents. I have alter ranging in task, skill, and purpose. From the main presenters, to avoidance alters, to emotion alters, persecutors/abusers (ones who get out of line if our secrets are compromised), and alters that lived out brief moments in my life. Each has their own set of opinions and belief patterns, ways of speaking, and ways of connecting with the world. I currently have a boyfriend but I'm taking a break from our relationship because many of my alters believe I'm not ready for anything involving a significant other. I take an ever-changing dose and cocktail of medications and DID is just my primary mental illness. Having DID is unlike anything that can be described. Everyone who has it has different experiences and while it can be summarized with features like above, no two systems are alike. It can be incredibly humbling, lonesome, angry, depressing, scary, and frustrating. Just now, as I fill out re-certification for state medical benefits, I frown at the section that asks for employment history because I can never (ever) remember dates, names, times, numbers like others. I'm in the appeals process of social security disability (my first go around) and I live with relatives that aren't very nice to or receptive to my illness. Life is hard but I take each day at a time. I hope this helps someone if they read it. You're not alone! Hit me up jfmayii@hotmail.com if you have any questions, I'd be glad to help. Though I'm new in my diagnosis I learn new things about myself and DID everyday!

i’ve been studying MPD or DID for a few weeks, to know if I actually had it or if my therapist was lying to me. And this has helped me out a lot. I do have it, and it affects a lot of what I do. I’m only 16 years old, and worrying about simple little things, and dealing with occurrences I can’t explain or account for. I have no sexual abuse in my past, but was neglected by my mother and father for 9 years until very recently when I started to cut and try to kill myself. I’ve faked things all my life, including eluding my therapist and stop taking medications that are given to me. I’m fighting with myself constantly to understand what’s going on, and to try to stop it. But I often find myself yelling for no reason in the middle of class, to someone that lives in my head. My life has been chaos since then, and I’m hoping to get treatment soon.

If you are yelling at someone in your head then you are most likely a Schizophrenic and should probably have that checked out. And by the way the odds of meeting someone with this disorder (if its even real) are 10 million to one. The facts point more to that this disorder is planted in therapy (placebo effect) or that you read about it and assume you have it (self-fulfilling prophecy). Even when you look at the most popular cases, such as Sybil for example they still debate that she was lead into that. Also it seems convieniant that serial killers have this whenever they talk to a therapist, such as Ted Bundy, and especially Kenneth Bianchi. There is no exact proof that this even exist, and those with it would be unable to function without proper help. So keep telling yourself they arent your problems there your mental problems.

what if "I-Sam" can handle that suffering better than "I-Bob"?

Hi I have been best friends with a girl that has MPD for a year now. I know 2 of the 3/4 personalities.

The dominant one I will call L, she is loving and kind but will stop at nothing to help a loved one.

The main alter I will call K, she loves me to death but in most cases will have a short fuse and will be willing to attack any one… unless you are a girl. She won’t hurt a girl physically.

Then the alter that comes out the leased and I only met once I will call S, is the studious one. All she wants to do is study.

And as for the last 3 weeks K when I was talking to her told me that L does not know yet but a boy has joined them. She is the one that names the new alters and has yet to name him.

As you see they are different in personality but they walk the same and talk the same. Only me and maybe 2 other people can tell when she switches. We have recently started dating. I love her to death but I can see she is getting worse. I can tell because how new her new personality is. I have yet to meet him. Her two alters love me to death and would do anything to keep me safe. I am perfectly happy living with her MPD because I believe that K and S are truly a part of her. I can live quite happily and love her new personality too but the fact that there is a new one that just showed up within the past 3 weeks tells me that she is getting worse. What do I do!

I have 6 people in here. 2 never show themselves to the other 4. i dont even think the the other 4 no of them. one is really evil the other one is passive and caring yet another one could care less about anyone. the other one is just too nice. which one am i really.i always wonder. Sometimes mt friends will tell me about something i did when we were hanging out and i dont remember it but i will pretend to. Sometimes i do really bad evil things to people physically and mentally,verbally with out any memory of it.waking up covered in someone elses blood isnt good if you can imagine what this must feel like when ya just snap out f it and back to so-called"NORMAL". I constantly remind people of that i have 6 in here but must just shrug it off. some beleive and have seen it happen and are content with who WE are & except me..erm US. then there are others who think i am just putting on a show but it is the truth. i've always known these 6 throughout my whole life. never told any of my psychiatrists about them. probably would have been sent off to some looney house. So i dont think i have a question,but at least i am able to share with a few strangers about who i am.

I am married to my childhood sweetheart of 33 years. My husband sustained a traumatic brain injury almost 20 years ago and an additional brain injury a year ago this past December. He suffered a personality change, was mean to me in the beginning after his injury for a short time, the doctors seemed like they had the medications pretty stable for quite a while when more recently he has been being mean to me off and on for the past 11 years. He recently admitted that he did this on purpose because he was angry with me for not allowing him to end his own life but, he took out a $500,000 life insurance policy on me several years ago and denies remembering doing it; even though the company and I have proof. He took out the insurance policy at a time that he admits not liking me, right down to my voice. Singing has always been a passion of mine and now I am afraid to sing for fear it will trigger the other behavior. I have told him on numerous occasions that he was acting aggressive and saying mean things to me but he never remembers doing it, even if it only happened a couple minutes prior. I have told him when this happens, he looks different and one of his eyes gets slanted, like he is furious and trying to hold it in. He has worked on anger issues since the accident with many different doctors. He always shows remorse when I am talking to him about it and yet, I am afraid to trust him. I don't know what to do. He has said he will talk to his therapist about it. I am fearful because I know him well enough to know that when he is feeling this way, he definitely doesn't like me. Can anyone offer any insight? It is killing our family. We have two boys 18 and 23 who still live home. They have also witnessed this behavior. In addition to the head injury our family lost our home to fire several years ago while my husband left the stove unattended when home alone.

Why would anyone cite an article that fails to cite any sources. How could you expect to build an argument from authority without the authority? This is the kind of scholarship that's poisoning academia.

Hey, I think i got one...



The one that really bothers me is when i feel something but later on, i forget what i feel..

@RAGE(of Katherine's) -

Your statements, about Alters origins, consist entirely of unreferenced assertions devoid of elaboration or explanation. Although many people are apparently satisfied by such hollow declarations, they are not helpful to me. For example, you said:

"Alters are created in response to the trauma". Alters are created? By intention or by reflex? What biological, neurological or psychological systems are involved in this act of creation?

In response to the trauma? How and why? Do you mean to say that alters are a byproduct of the catecholamine neurotransmitter cascades, stimulated by the "fight or flight" stress response systems?

The "alters" you describe sound more like a spiritual phenomenon, a lot like angels in fact:
http://guideangel.com/
rather than fully differentiated personas.

Actually I had some type of memory loss problem but some times I could recognize my past but not always. I could understand that I'm not behaving the same. And I had not wear my glasses properly and even I said to my parents i could see even without glasses. And now people around me feel that I'm different. And even sometimes I think of fighting with someone or talking to someone. I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND MYSELF. PLEASE I NEED HELP.... PLEASE

In reply to Justin:



Alters are created in response to the trauma. They exist to deal with the trauma. Many have lower pain tolerance, or think they deserve the trauma, or are even created to enjoy the trauma. Even if they hate the trauma, they understand that they are there to protect the core child and/or younger members of the system and will do so at their own expense.

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When i was 30yrs old i was diagnosed with Munchausen's disorder. Which i think they may have got it so wrong. As at times i find myself doing diffrent things and not remembering what i was doing them for,also i have found out from diffrent people like the police that i have called them saying that i am a diffrent person wanting to kill myself or harm myself, they have threatened to arrest me for this. But i do not remember doing this they have said that when they have rescued me i sound and act and look like a diffrent person, but i don't remember any of these things happeningh. Does any body else think i have a personality disorder if so please help as am scared incase i end up getting arrest for wasting the polices time.

i have a friend with mpd, one of her personalities uses drugs and alcohol alot and doesnt seem to care if she gets into trouble (which she constantly finds herself in) but when i confronted this personality of hers she changed. shes been acting strange for weeks now. one moment shell be fine and then shell just break down out of now were. i want to help her, its just getting to hard to watch her crumple down infront of me. please, i need a solution.

Hi, I believe I have MPD.

I have personalities that seem to change quite often... They seem to have my emotions, but they also have a history it feels like, like they came up with- or I came up with- some sort of explanation. The whole idea came from the first two personalities, the eldest: Sure and Shorty are their names. All my personalities are women, but they do vary in age and... I suppose look. These two appeared and one other one appeared with them: Nikki. Shorty was a very hyper, very permiscuous, and considers-herself-evil person. She did what ever she wanted. And she seemed to be my dominant personality for a year, then Nikki took over. Nikki was extremely emotional, very beautiful, and very young. She seemed to always have some sort of crush on someone. Sure took over after that, but periodically, in between Nikki. ( My personalities always seem to have a dominant, and there is a "collective," in which I seem to be all personalities, and I suppose normal.) She was very rational, friendly and willing to give advice to people. She was pretty much the one who controlled my... supposed hardworkingness, if that makes sense. When Nikki took over, Shorty had the "beauty" factor and the hyperness, and Nikki and Sure took them from her and gave them all to Nikki. Shorty became a bitter evil subdued spirit. Then Sure of course "shared power" with Nikki. Then a new personality came from the hyperness because Nikki could not handle all the power... The new personality was named Kerosene, and she was very young, barely 2 or 3 it seemed. She was all hyper and innocent, I believe she took Nikki's innocence too. Then after some more epic battling, This is the current status:

Kerosene: The dominant personality. She is very hyper and innocent but now appears to be about 10 years old, maybe younger.

Sure: She is very depressed, but she is still strong and tough, very commandeering and friendly in a gruff way.

Shorty: Well, she is very intelligent. And she takes over quite often... She has a british sort of accent, and has trouble imitating my american accent, though she has tried. She is beautiful again, and considers herself evil. But... kind of cool like.

Nikki: Apparently Nikki is dead. She faded away. Her emotions were distributed among the other three and she seems to be a very vague outline in my mind. She had some battle where she attempted to get rid of the MPD but ended up making a monster of herself, where the other personalities had to strip her of her emotions and give her the "bad" ones: permiscuity, selfishness, greed, jealousy, those sorts.

Now then, can someone please tell me: Do I have MPD? Or do I have an overactive imagination? Or am I lonely? Because I feel like I can control the personalities... sort of. It's odd. Please someone help me, this is screwing with my life a bit.

hi i always feels i am under DID



i did a lot of experiments on myself

and its totaly true that i am suffering from MPD

I belive I have MPD / DID, I fear that this will create major problems for my future, I would like to know if this is it and what I can do. Here are some of them



"Hippie Dude" who has a name but I forget it, I have a slight memory problem. This one walks differently, talks differently and writes and sees differently than me, also has different abilities (eg. he can write in cursive better than me and he is much calmer) he claims to be a friend and hes given me some help and advice in my life.



"Panic" in wich I've never gotten a name or spoken to, but I know it's a female (is that possible?) she fears everyone and everything, she seems to cower in the nearest corner and use the nearest object as a defensive tool. She likes shiney objects and jingly things to play with wich calms her down.





Daniel, he is obbsessed with neatness and things being straight and symetrical, his eyesight may be much better than mine and he refuses to write on paper due to his terrible handwriting.



(This name might seem a bit strange) Crasalin, I've know him the longest, he has acted as somewhat of a father figure to me, hes guieded me through rough times and he usually tells me not to be afraid, he aso calms me down when I'm stressed and he seems to be aware of the others and he told me that he wards them off as much as he can. He rarely take controll himself.



I dont have a name for this one, but he / she is the reason I decided to look for help tonight, this one talks to me directly and takes controll of my body, it tells me the worst things and makes me feel like crawling into a corner, if it takes controll I can usualy still see, but I cant move, it always goes to a mirror and tells me these things while I watch, it also likes to smash me into things, just now it happend in the bathromm and it was telling me how I will never go anywhere and how my life should end, the thing I notice the most about this one is the facial exressions and the way it talks, it's voice is more grizzly and deep, it uses many hand gestures and it seems to find joy in making me miserable.



These are ones I know of. Somebody please help me, does anyone have advice? I also want to know if it's normal to be able to speak to some of them.



If anyone has any advice for me please e-mail me.

I have a friend with MPD.. I recently noticed this..What worries me is that she will be arrested while under one of her Drug using Personalitys..Is there any medicatation that may keep her in her sound mind and not the one that has no worries or fear of being arrested???. I love her alot and worry.. Talk does not help.. She is in desperate need of some kind of outside help?,,Where can I find a solution???

Hi,ive only recently discovered that i may have this disorder after doing my own research.My doctors are not listening and theres very little support and understanding in the uk.



Ive have a female personality,a gay one,a dangerous one and many others.I tend to forget my previous personalitys and only remember several months later or sometimes years later.I change when under stress or i experience trauma.It can also cause panic attacks.My voice or accent can change and i also experience a change in my physiology.My life has been ruined by this illness and ive lost many friends and cant hold down a job.



my father used to dress me in various costumes (mainly military) as a child which might be a reason.Would be gratefull for some advice or point me in the right direction.My life is now under threat due to actions of one personality.

i have two distinct personalities and they differ in love making and voice and even hand writing, food prefference and even muscle tone. their attitudes and demeanors are even different when under the influence of alchol or drugs which ever side is in control is sedated or at times of extreme emotions like anger or sadness ive lived in secret with both of them my memories are affected and i have lost jobs and lovers because of them even switched and didnt know how i got to where ever i was. it is masked very well because people either think im just in a bad mood or hyper they never realize that they are dealing with a whole other person. i have dealt with it most of my life and never could explain to anyone what was going on out of fear of criticism and redicule. one personality is very outspoke and hyper and the other is very conservitive and cautious with almost a military demeanor ive dealt with it for almost all my life alone its been very hard and frustrating at time. if anyone would like to talk about it or ask questions feel free to email me anytime. thanks for your time

I believe my friend has DID, here are his symptoms:

- he switches when he sleeps

- there are about 5 alters in him

- both male and femal

- are all named

- different attractions to other people

- quiet at times, then different

- changes walks

- vision changes (sometimes he wears glasses and sometimes he does not

- says he has memories with each alter



Did he have to have a trauma experience or sexual abuse when he was younger to have DID?!

ok all my girlfriend has mpd n one of the personalities likes to cut n its getting more powerful then what it was n i wanna know how do i break her

Hey all-

I have a question for all of you. I totally and completely believe in DID and the fact that many people suffer with it. You are all very strong, and I admire you.

A few weeks ago, a 47 year old friend of mine began seeing a new therapist. This therapist hypnotized her, and when she woke up- she was told she had DID. Now suddenly, this friend speaks in "we's" and "us's" all the time, stating that she's a little boy, a controlling man or a guide to the others. They all have names. Is it possible that for 47 years she had no idea she had DID or other personalities until this therapist hypnotized her?

This friend has always been someone who wants people to pay attention to her. For years she has posted on Facebook stating she wants to kill herself, that nobody loves her, etc. But not until these past few weeks did these other personalities emerge. I thought DID was a childhood-onset disorder?

I married her ex, who states that, even after 8 years together, it never once occurred that this woman may have had other personalities. She did not experience any bouts of memory loss, she never had other names. She did experience depression, but that's really the extent of it.

For all intents and purposes, these "people" have only recently come into existence.

Now, as I said- I truly do believe that DID exists, but I'm having a hard time believing her.

So I'm asking you- is it possible to have a sudden emergence of DID at 47?

Thanks for any assistance you can provide.

I'm not very sure if a person can be aware of another personality and would like to know if that's possible? Hi, I'm 17 and I suffered from child abuse; My father suffers from memory loss and constantly confuses things all the time. I suspect my father has DID, I don't think it's mood swings anymore. Both my parents suffered from child abuse, my father is the angry and violent one. i want to know what i can do to get diagnosed for this, no one seems to believe me. i am able to recall being there, but don't feel anything. When this other personality does take place there is only rage and it's harmful. It's gotten to the point where i've started abusing people around me, my siblings and my parents. I can't control it; it always happens when I'm terribly depressed. I've been depressed for about 10 years now, i've been on different medication but it doesn't help control the depression. how can i convince my parents to get me checked out? who gets in trouble if i do hurt someone? i've also had murderous impulses which thankfully I have been able to control for a long time. any help would be appreciated!

All of this is very helpful. I married my high school sweetheart who has DID. We have been together for 8 years and have a 5 month old boy. He has 7 personalities for the moment. He has 2 women, 3 men and one very childish man. They are all great to our baby. For a long time I thought he was faking it just to mess with me. I didn't truly believe him until i noticed that no matter what i would say or do they would never go away. To this day we still don't now what happened to him in his childhood to make him this way. The advice i have is that living with someone that has DID is never easy and never gets normal. It just gets different. I try my best to love them all and do as much as i can to help. In the end that is all you can do. But in the end all this is hard work is worth it. Too all of you that are friends or are in love with someone that has DID try to understand them as much as you can. Try to love and care for them as much as you can without compromising yourself. Also, try to encourage the person to seek a doctor that can help them. Good luck to all of you!

I left my fiancee becasue I could not cope, I think he has at least 3 personalitys, a child, very frightened, a very good man (the one I love and promised to marry) and a very cocky, self centered narcisist that HATES my guts. When he is out he just sleeps with anyone and professeds love to other women, then calls and tells me. Only to hear from personality 2 again weeks later, crying and asking for forgiveness. Either he is a compulsive liar or has MPD or maybe boith. Has episodes of high anxiety where he says he hates my child. Then he would say that the kid is a great kid. I am runnig away, have asked him to search for help, but nobody seems to agree with me. They think I am making things up out of spite. So if you think you might have MPD tell your doctor exactly what has happened, do not lie or change anything. It's very confusing for anyone that loves you.

I’m afraid I might have DID. I’ve been looking up the symptoms all over and so far I have a lot of them. I can hardly remember any of my childhood. Most of it’s a blank. I don’t remember much of elementary, other then one time when I found myself crying in the guidance offices. I don’t even remember why I went there in the first place. I have trouble with time and often forget things seconds after I’m told, or people tell me they told me something that I’ve never heard before.

I have one or two memories from my childhood, one not so great, and the other simple and happy. One was at a young age when I was sexuality abused by my cousin, but I don’t remember everything only some of it. The other is this simple thing me and my granny used to do-I lived with my grand parents, my mom was a drug addict-she’d put on a cup of coffee and say that it would baring my papa home faster, as soon as she’d sat it on the table he’d walk though the door. I used to think it was magick. But he died.

After his death people said I changed, but I never really got what they meant. I know I was distend from everyone, but I acted the same for the most part, or I thought did. Now I’m in 11th grade and I find myself sometimes talking with and accent that I don’t notice until someone says something about it. People say I’m more bold and kind of mean when I use it, and I used the name Varala instead of my real name.

Lately I’ve been having a lot of brake downs, one day I came to school and just broke down crying, for no reason. My mom had to come get me I was so hysterical. The next time I found myself grabbing a knife even though I didn’t want anything to do with it. I sat myself by the freezer and just cried, holding the knife and running my fingers over it, not hard enough to cut, but hard enough to make it hurt.

I’ve been so unstable lately when usually I’m the one holding everything together for my friends. But I don’t know. I’ve been researching DID/MPD since I stated reading When Rabbit Howls a notice how many sings I showed. But I don’t know… if anyone has anyway to help me massage me and dragonlady05281991@yahoo.com

Sorry for ranting…

I'm 14 years old and I go to high school. I had an abusive past by my dad and a tough life at school in the past. My dad has Multiple Personality Disorder and Munchausen Syndrome. He had a back injury a while ago and had to take Oxy Cotton, a perscription drug. He is very smart and can trick anyone easily too. Then sometimes he's nice and careing for people. He's divorcing my mom, and was being very easy about it, until he attempted to kick her out. This was the side of him I was most afraid of. I said I would go with my mom, and so he tried to kick me out too. He didn't pick me up from school one day and dropped me off out of the car about two miles away from my house. It's been about a year since that has all happened, but the divorce is still going on, since court issued a restaining order, keeping my dad away from us, we haven't been able to do much about the divorce. He took my older brother once and held him hostage so my mom could give him his passport and his gun. He's also done many crimes, such as fraud and drinking while driving. He last got a DUI when I was four. He's has this personality disorder even when he married my mom 16 years ago. He was abused by his family when he was young as well. I still miss the nice side of him. He had at least 20 different personalities. Most common was his childish side, his nice side, his mean side, his abusive side, and his depressed side. Since he left, my mom and I found out he used my mom's name in the credit card frauds he's done over the years and we reached a total of about 600,000 dollars. I didn't realize how I acted around people anymore until my friends began to tell me how rude, mean, and scarey I can be. I often feel depressed, paranoid, angry and sometimes violent. I also have many of the symptoms to this disorder. I can't even remember some of the things I did or say. I hear from my mom and friends that I'm being verbally abusive. I'm afraid of myself now and I stay away from people so I don't hurt them. What can I do to get better?

I hope I am not intruding. (I did not use a real E-adress, I apologize) I was researching and found you. I am a therapist. I treat many DID people. They teach me many things besides the obvious: courage, survival, hope, etc. You are special people with amazing minds. If you seek help from a therapist, be absolutely certain they understand DID. If you need to, have one of your strong personalities see him or her to evaluate their abilities. Good therapy has a very high success rate in helping you reach your goals, which can be different for different people. Some medicine can help with panic, anxiety, depression, etc. All of your parts came from the original mind and the main parts are very important and valuable to you. Good luck to you all.

I have a 36 year old son that has MPD with a few personalities. One is a child, two are women and a couple are men. He has a new one that has come out and he is dark. My son's skin gets darker, his hair is darker and he growels. This personality is very verbaly abbusive and mean.

i have a friend who claims to have MPD but everything i learned about her matches everything i heard about being in one personality and no matter how i think about it, i should have realized at least a couple of differences in personality but i didn't, so my question is, what is the probability of meeting someone new with MPD and only seeing one of their alters? the answer to this will help me deal with her a little better

Thanks for the information. I've 40 years old and have lived with MPD almost all my life and just starting to understand some of it. Grew up a sexual abuse survivor from age 7 to 16 and also in a 15 year marriage. I know I have atleast 6 alters and one is a young child. This helped to ruin alot of relationships in the past. I can sometimes detect when I switch alters, especially into the child. I drive truck for a living and it scares me out of my mind when that happens out on the road but I have learned to live with it. I have alot of panick attacks. But with a couple understanding good freinds they help me through the rough days. Does anyone ever lead a normal life with MPD?

this information is really helpful, i have just learned about this last bit, about heart rates and blood pressures.... good 2 know

we have a friend who claims to have 2 personalities. One is a wolf and the other a dianosaur. Is this possible? She is really frightening her boyfriend. She says she also has a lady personality who is different than she is. Says she knows all the time what the other is saying. Your material doesn't mention this. Her parents divorced when she was young and she has controling grandfather. Father was abusive. Could she be faking it to get attention?

Very informative. Thanks.

thank you for all your help!!!